A whole year has gone by and to be truthful, I have no idea where it has gone. My Keeley is still gone and I feel so empty and yet it feels like it only happened last week.
I feel anger, upset and many other emotions as I think about what happened and the way Keeley's life was taken from her. She wasn't given the opportunities she so rightly deserved to have. We were looking forward to having a family and emmigrating later to New Zealand and in a few seconds soembody made a decision that took her life away. That decision was selfish and without thought for anybody else's life and it ended with both losing their lives. An 81 year old that had lived his but took Keeley's from her. I shall never forgive what he did to Keeley, me and so many others. Keeley, who I love so much, gone.
I know I have many feelings about all of this and it takes time (so I'm told) to sort everything out and maybe i'm trying to rush things. I keep thinking about anything I can do to bring Keeley back, I just don't want to give up on her. There has to be something I can do, but you know in your mind it's useless. I don't want to beleive that one day I have the power of Keeleys love and the next i'm left so empty. Keeley will always be in my heart and her love and spirit will always live on, but I just wanted her to realise everything she ever wanted and now I feel so useless.
Now in my mind, Keeley has been put to rest and the right respect and love has been shown towards her, as she rightfully deserves.
We all love Keeley but I feel her loss so much and she was so much a part of my life. I really don't know what to do without her. She will always live on in me and the candle light shall always burn with warmth and love for her.